TRIFLE – Appreciate Everything…
Trifle carries many meanings, it means an English dessert dish made from thick (or often solidified)

custard, diced fruit interwoven with sponge fingers or more delicate sponge cake thin layer.

Or it also carries the meaning of a thing of very little value.

Remember when we were kids, how happy we are? We didn’t have any money, but we live our life. Woke up early and smelled the new brewed tea and the spicy taste of bihun goreng or the delightful nasi lemak prepared by our mother.

As our stomach full, we grabbed the towel and ran and chased the cat on our way to the bathroom. 

Yet we pour it, washing ourselves when the water dews still dancing on the leaves. We played with the soap bubble, creating many shapes as our imagination flourished in the fantasy land. I used to image the bubble is like the cloud where we could touch and feels it.We stare at the water for hours. We fear the cold of the water in the kolah as we fear the burning of the fire.

As we stare out of the window while raining, we used to watch how the water drop on the surface and become excited to when the droplet break when it hit the floor. 

We used to watch the ants marching in a series of organised lines to the anthill for hours.

I used to walk under my wooden house flipping the stone to find the snail and insect crawling beneath it.

When we heard the motorcycle sound followed ringing of bells.

We know what to do and quickly ran towards the ice cream man. We have lots of time to do everything. 

Present

In weekend, as the Subuh past, the dawn caught us quickly without us realising few hours already passed since that day. We grab our breakfast. Walk lazily to the cushion and bed. We lay back and start pressing the remote control watching till noon, and interrupted only by the lunch. Or we stick our hand with the smartphones until the batteries sign started to show indicating it need to be recharged.

And the same routines keep repeating during our free time.

Working

When we grow older and move on our life in the working age, it all changed. We do not care at all about this sweet little thing. We wake up, take a bath, dressing, drive to work.. Work our ass off. We come back home, feeling tired, and miserable, and wouldn’t care much about what's happening in the world. You just want to sleep after those long, exhausting day. We have plenty of money yet we do not feel anything around us. We do not enjoy things.

As I read from a person said about the life of our generation are facing. - You see, we often get so caught up in our busy lives that we tend to forget just how important it is to actually live in and experience each and every moment in its simplicity.

We live for the big things, the exciting things, instead of too, always appreciating the little things. We live for the weekends, the holidays, or the vacation we’ve been dreaming of for years, instead of too cherishing the days we spend in bed with a pint of ice cream watching “The As time goes on, so do we.

We go on, living life, forgetting completely about our past to ‘live in the moment’ to ‘appreciate the little things’ and to ‘not take things.. Or life.. For granted’. We go back to being overworked and becoming too busy for the moments that REALLY matter in the grand scheme of things. We go back to planning our entire lives, down to the retirement we hope to have by age 65, and all of the things we’ll do once we reach this new age of supposed freedom and independence.

We forget this trifle things what used to make up our life rather the current fixed robotic life

Bila Dah Besar Nanti...

Tengok-tengok balik.. banyak post pulak aku pasai kenangan silam.. boleh jugak kata most of my wonderful things happened to me when i was a child.

Banyak yang kita suka dalam dunia ini.. ada yang pada masa ini.. ada yang pada masa lepas.. mungkin ada yang pada masa depan.. ni nak cerita sket pasal sorang budak lelaki yang menjadi suria perkasa hitam tetapi berakhir dengan menjadi seorang guru.

Kita Kedewasaan

Bila kita kecik-kecik dulu, nk sangat jadi org besar.. nampak seronok alam dewasa ni.. boleh jalan jauh- jauh, boleh pergi kedai sendiri, nak pi kedai beli cikedis pun mak tak marah.. ada duit sndiri, boleh beli semua benda yang kita hanya mimpi boleh dapat. Well, that what we think about adulthood. 

Impian aku?

Terpengaruh dan terikut2 dengan abang kedua ak sorang. Jarak umur tak jauh buatkan ak senang nak ikut kemana.. kalau dia tak bagi, aku nanges kuat-kuat... selalu kena tinggal sebab mak tak bagi ikut.. semua yang abang ak buat ak ikut buat.. 

Dia minat ultraman ace, aku minat ultraman taro. Dia minat kesatria baja hitam, aku pun ikut sama minat jugak. Dia ada kereta dashankuro emperor.. aku pun tak ketinggalan beli kereta dash shooting star.. senang kata semua benda ak terikut dia.. 

Kami berenggang bila dia sibuk dengan SPM, kemudian Matrikulasi... University.. Masa tu jugak ak dihantar ke Asrama Penuh.. setahun boleh hitung dengan jari berapa kali kami dapat jumpa.. Still, aku masih terikut-ikut dengan dia.. Bila dia berpeluang untuk sambung belajar dalam bidang Kejuruteraan Kimia.. Aku pun minat yang sama.. Berangan-angan nak sambung belajar dalam bidan Kejuruteraan Biotech. Kalau orang lain boleh kata idola diorang orang-orang hebat macam Dr. M, Nelson Mandela, Bill Gates.. Tapi aku, simple.. Idola aku adalah abang aku sorang ni... Boleh kata orang dia adalah role model aku.

Return to 1996 - abg nizam, abg pit, mat not, dan aku..

Tapi bukan semua yang kita hajati dipenuhi.. Perancangan Allah lebih hebat.. entah macam mana aku boleh tercampak dalam profesyen keguruan ni..  lari terus dari trek cita-cita aku... 

6 tahun berlalu ibarat macam makan kuaci.. ngap2.. tahu2 dah habis sebungkus.. aku termenung lagi.. biar betul semua ni.. dah habis.. dah masuk alam dewasa..

Betul ke alam dewasa ni macam yang kita bayangkan dulu.. seronok, bebas, ada duit banyak.. boleh merantau mana2 yg kita suka..

Satu benda yang tak akan kanak2 pikir bila meningkat dewasa adalah tanggungjawab.mereka tak tahu apa itu tanggungjawab, tak tahu beratnya tanggungjawab.. tak tahu betapa susahnya nak mencari rezeki..

3 bulan abis belajar.. masih terawang-awang lagi.. kemana hala hidup ak ni.. orang lain dh berkeluarga.. ak sesen pun tak dapat cari sendiri lagi.. hati dan otak sama-sama berfalsafah.. pikirkan tujuan utama hidup ni... aku yang ak cari dalam hidup ni..

Bila tanya byk org.. byk jawapan yang ak dapat.. antaranya.. nk cari duit.. nak berkeluarga.. nak tambah lagi ilmu, sambung master, doktor... ada jugak ckp nk mengejar akhirat..

Aku masih lagi terpinga-pinga... apa sebenarnya yang kita kejar dalam hidup ni?

Duit? Pangkat? Harta? Keluarga

"Ketahuilah, bahwa Sesungguhnya kehidupan dunia Ini hanyalah permainan dan suatu yang melalaikan, perhiasan dan bermegah- megah antara kamu serta berbangga-banggaan tentang banyaknya harta dan anak, seperti hujan yang tanam-tanamannya mengagumkan para petani; Kemudian tanaman itu menjadi kering dan kamu lihat warnanya kuning Kemudian menjadi hancur. dan di akhirat (nanti) ada azab yang keras dan ampunan dari Allah serta keredhaan-Nya. dan kehidupan dunia Ini tidak lain hanyalah kesenangan yang menipu." – Al hadid [57:20]

Rindunya zaman budak2 dulu2. Main selut, muka berlemoih, baju lusuh, seluar terkoyak, berbasikal buruk.... tak dak sapa pun yg kesah...